Wolfgirl: Waves

Everything we do, every choice we make, has repercussions. On the bus today, I was talking to my friend Shannon (who went to my school in 6th grade then transferred to another school) about that sports that we did. This lead to talks about classes. Then teachers, one of whom has died since. Our first period teacher 6th grade year; I told her about the suicide and she was shocked because she had no idea how our teacher had died. This led to me eventually telling her about Noah, a boy who was in that who also recently killed himself. She had not heard anything of this, so it fell on me to tell her. I held back tears, because I knew she was not as close to him as I was. I barely finished telling her when it the bus got to my stop, so as I walked home, it was all I could think about. I grabbed the mail on my way in; Opening the door for home tears started to flow and role down my face. It was not till I went to set the mail down on the table that I actually looked at the contents; It was my permit!
It has finally come in the mail after two weeks of waiting. Somehow though, I'm not joyous at all even though I have looked forward to this day for years. All I can think about is how Noah will never get that chance. His 15th birthday passed only about a month after his death so he never got to experience that. He never got to legally drive down the road and feel that freedom. I know he chose that but some how I still feel guilt and sadness that I can and he never will. I wonder if he could ever have imagined how much of an effect his choices would make on the lives of countless people.
Every decision we make causes waves in the lives of others. Make the right Choice.

Wolfgirl

In Memory of Noah Lanni, rest in peace Turtle-Boy