Wolfgirl: Waves

Everything we do, every choice we make, has repercussions. On the bus today, I was talking to my friend Shannon (who went to my school in 6th grade then transferred to another school) about that sports that we did. This lead to talks about classes. Then teachers, one of whom has died since. Our first period teacher 6th grade year; I told her about the suicide and she was shocked because she had no idea how our teacher had died. This led to me eventually telling her about Noah, a boy who was in that who also recently killed himself. She had not heard anything of this, so it fell on me to tell her. I held back tears, because I knew she was not as close to him as I was. I barely finished telling her when it the bus got to my stop, so as I walked home, it was all I could think about. I grabbed the mail on my way in; Opening the door for home tears started to flow and role down my face. It was not till I went to set the mail down on the table that I actually looked at the contents; It was my permit!
It has finally come in the mail after two weeks of waiting. Somehow though, I'm not joyous at all even though I have looked forward to this day for years. All I can think about is how Noah will never get that chance. His 15th birthday passed only about a month after his death so he never got to experience that. He never got to legally drive down the road and feel that freedom. I know he chose that but some how I still feel guilt and sadness that I can and he never will. I wonder if he could ever have imagined how much of an effect his choices would make on the lives of countless people.
Every decision we make causes waves in the lives of others. Make the right Choice.

Wolfgirl

In Memory of Noah Lanni, rest in peace Turtle-Boy

Wolfgirl: Proud Sister :)

Today I got to be the proud big sister; Chase had his first baseball game! He plays right field (or so I have been told) and actually got to play, even though he has been to only 3 out of 5 practices. Let me just say, there is a huge size range from the smallest 9-year old to the biggest 10-year old; The biggest guy could sit on the small guy and he would completely disappear. It was quite funny because they went consecutively!
Chase did pretty good for his first game of baseball (EVER!!!) and even hit the ball twice (he only got to bat once). I can't wait for his next game, perhaps I'll make signs!!! :)
Hope you all have had a good couple of days!

Love and Spiders (one of the nasty little buggers got in my hair at the game!!!),
Wolfgirl

Wolfgirl: IT'S MY BIRTHDAY AND I'LL CRY IF I WANT TO!!!

I actually cried today. It's the first time I've cried on my birthday in years. It was not even that bad, I just really had my heart set on getting my permit today. I've been studying all week (that's practically all I did today) and planned out my whole day so I would get to the DMV on time and still be able to get everything I needed to get done done. Honestly, at some points, I did not think we would make it on time, but we did. After all that, I was simply relieved to get there and take the test (HOPING I DID NOT FAIL). I went up to the lady and tried to calm my frazzled nerves as she looked thrue my paper work. And looked thrue my paper work. And looked thrue my paper work again. I was getting even more worried when she looked up and asked for another piece of paper. Seeing as all of the papers I brought I had already given to her, I looked helplessly at my dad. For once, even he, was at a loss. We had forgotten to bring it. I could not take my test. I was in shock as she handed me my papers back, but as I walked out the doors of the DMV my eyes filled with tears. As I sat in the and called my mom to find out abut the paper, I held back sobs. She did not know that I had needed that paper when she helped me get the stuff for the DMV together (and when I had mentioned it, she shrugged it off). I think she felt worse than I did when I was sitting there, practically crying on the phone. The drive home sucked, everyone in the car trying to cheer me up while I just wanted to be left alone. I did not even know why I was so upset, but I could not help the tears.
I've gotten over it and I'll probably do even better on the test tomorrow from all the practice I've gotten this evening. Over all, this has been a very memorable birthday.

Love and Birthday Balloons,
Wolfgirl

WWOW: Advice, The Giving Of

Honestly, your friends can't always give you the best advice; sometimes all they can be is a shoulder to cry on. Even then, they can only do that if you let them.
I'm the person that one friend in particular comes to for advice (not that they ever listen to me at all) and all I can do is try my best to help them out sometimes. I mean, when you don't talk to me for two weeks (one was Spring Break and we don't share any classes so I don't blame her for that) then just cam up and tell me something shocking, what do you expect me to do??? How am I supposed to react to you telling me you were high all day at school because you found your brother's ADD pills and your mother's Vicoden and decided to take some just to see what would happen??? I honestly want to tell you that you are on the fast track to disaster; these people you hang out with now are all bad influences and you can do so much better. How am I supposed to make you realize that people who do drugs and have sex in school bathrooms aren't normal or cool. What do I say when I all I really want to do is slap you over the head and demand you stop?!?
The truth of the is, I can't help everyone, and neither can anybody else. Maybe if I had been in that situation I could help but all I can do is give the best advice I can come up with. Maybe sit down, talk it out and help you make a plan. Maybe you don't even want my advice in the first place.
I used to think when people told me things like this, it was a cry for help but maybe they just want attention; most of the people I know who ask me for advice these days really seem like that's all their out to get. Then again, I could be wrong, but one thing is for sure no matter what people say they HAVE to let you help them. If they don't even listen to what you say, perhaps you don't need to be sharing it.

Love and Fake Smiles,
Wolfgirl

P.S. Wow, that was harsh! Sorry if I brought any of y'all down, I just had to get that off my chest. Thanks for listening ;)

Wolfgirl: Lessons Learned Over Vacation

Over this last week, I've realized many things and I thought I would share them with you. Trust me; this is way better than the alternative of writing you a 17 paragraph story about break. Here goes:
1. My baby cousins (the twins) really are the cutest babies ever. I LOVE LUKE AND MAGGIE ROSE!
2. My mom is not going to drive anywhere in the rain if she is tired.
3. Tornados are scary and, when they are close, get in a hallway with some pillows over your head; NOT outside on a lawn chair watching the storm!
4. Yellow is a really great color to paint your nails- but only if you put a clear coat on under.
5. Facebook is addictive if you have nothing better to do and 2 hours a day of free time.
6. Riding the inner tube when you have no upper body strength is bad and causes you to be EXTREAMLY SORE (if you are me, this can last up to 5 days 0-0).
7. Discount stores really are great; $200s bought my entire summer wardrobe!
8. Tangled is a pretty good movie; the 4th Shrek movie rocks; 30 Days of Night is not as scary as it sounds but is extremely gory; The Covenant is an okay movie with AMAZINGLY HOT ACTORS!!!
9. I hate cats that continuously pee in my dang hallway!
10. Going to the gym is great but sweating is really gross epically if it won’t stop.
11. I really miss my family when I'm not with them and I love acting crazy with them.
12. Convertibles suck in the rain (this may seem like common sense, but I just want to reiterate!!!)
13. My addiction to Quizilla can be broken, if I have fun things to do.
14. I should blog when I feel like writing, because if I wait too long I lose all inspiration.
15. Shoes are fun; falling in 5-inch heels isn't.
16. My new anti-virus kind of sucks; it makes my computer slow and blocks stuff it should not.
17. Even if your parents say you have a choice, you really don't, and it's better just to go along with them in the first place. This can help avoid stress and many arguments.
20. Little kids have too little patience to dye Easter Eggs the traditional way and should generally just stick to covering the eggs with stickers.
19. Spring Break ROCKS!!!
20. The end of spring break is depressing.

Wishing you the best of chocolate-bunny eating,
Wolfgirl

Wolfgirl: Springbreak

On springbreak this week, either I'll post allot or not at all. This all depends on whether or not I get out and buy some Anti-Virus software for my computer. My current protection (hehe) ends in 47 minuets!
If I don't get back soon, hope you have a great week :)

Love,
Wolfgirl

Wolfgirl: Late Night Arguments

All I've heard for the last hour and a half is my dad and step mom arguing. I mean, they are full on yelling at each other trying to get their points across. They aren't even fighting about normal things, like money or discipline, they are yelling about the importance of the Constitution and kids being educated about the Constitution. They are also throwing in things about how the government is going to the dogs because people keep trying to change the foundation on the government as well as people 'coming into the country to change it'. They are still arguing, but now it's about religious policies in government and schools.
Honestly, I just think they want an excuse to yell, they seem to enjoy it. This is what happens when your step mom decides to go back to school and get a degree in Criminal Justice.
Hope y'all get some sleep tonight (because I wont be getting it anytime soon)!

Love and Carrots (Cuz I'm healthy like that!!!),
Wolfgirl

P.S. SPRING BREAK NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!!!

WWOW: Computers

Honestly, I'm not the most techy person in the world, but I can still instill you with my advice for their usage:
1. When your computer beeps strangely at you- something is probably wrong and you should pay attention and stop reading fanfiction
2. Yelling at your computer does no good unless you are arguing with someone on Skype.
3. Don't click  on random adds no matter how cool they seem- cleaning the virus off your computer is not worth it!!! ;)
4. When the low-battery noise goes off, PAY ATTENTION... Or you might just end up with everything you were working on deleted.
5. Don't spill orange drink into the keyboard of your laptop- this will cause an immediate and permanent meltdown.
6. If you're going to let your dog chew threw the chord of your laptop charger- FULLY CHARGE IT FIRST (especially if you don't know where to buy a new one).
7. Don't give your info to creepy peds- they could turn out to be crazy stalkers and those are no fun!
8. Let your sister on your computer one in a while- the favors will eventually come in handy!!! ;)
9. Play nice and don't send innocent people crappy messages filled with things you would never say in person!
10. Don't read (or even stand) over your mother's shoulder when she is on her email- this will cause a meltdown of major proportions and probably the loss of some important part of your life (IE. your cell phone, computer, TV, etc.)
Keep these in mind when on your computer guys!!! They will come in handy!

Love and Fanfiction,
Wolfgirl

Wolfgirl: One Crazy Night

Last night was Chibi's birthday party so five of us headed over to her house for a sleepover. She was turning 15 and it was the first time she had ever had a friend spend the night at her place; needless to say, it was quite interesting.
I met Chibi earlier in the day to go see thedrama department of my highscholl put on CATS. It was pretty fantastic, the best highschool play I have ever been to; they did work on it for 2 months. It was two WHOLE hours DANCING, I would never be able to do that and still have my make-up look great. I have to say, I realy respect everyone who can do that.
Once at Chibi's we had a ball. We talked, played in her Mac, talked, ate pizza, smashed cake in Chibi's face, had cake smashed in our faces, talked, drew, listened to music, talked, had silly-string fights and more. It was pretty much awesome! Except for the fact I got 4 hours of sleep last night and I've got school tomorrow- that sucks.
Hope you all had great weekends too! :)

Love and Friends,
Wolfgirl

p.s. Happy Birthday Chibi!!!

Wolfgirl: *Yawns*

I just wanted to drop in before I crash. I just took some allergy medicine (my allergies kill me this time of year) and pretty soon, I'll be completely conked out.
I finished the driving part of D.E. yesterday so now as soon as my birthday, I can get my permit. I should probably study for the test they give at the DMV..... yeah, I'll get right on that (NOT). JK, I've got to pass that test.
Hope Y'all had good day today!

Love and Sneezes,
Wolfgirl